The mind is one crazy thing.

Since it’s your birthday, this is the first time we’ve spoken in months. I just want to have a conversation with you. I wonder if you want to as well.

Remember that weight is just a number.

I’m pretty sure that a lot of you want to weigh less as a new years resolution, but keep some things in mind:

  • Weight is just a number.
  • Your health is more important than a number.
  • Body fat percentage is more important than weight.

Don’t work to make yourself weigh less. Work to make yourself healthier, work to make yourself look sexy as fuck, and work to make yourself feel better. 

I don’t know about you, but I’d rather weigh 160 with <10% body fat than 140 with >10% body fat. 

Eat well, sleep well, be well. Good luck everyone. Let’s motivate each other!

Thought this looked cool lol.

Thought this looked cool lol.

I can’t wait

until my girlfriend and I can take road trips together.

or travel to other countries together.

or sleep and wake up to see the sun together.

or sleep together at all haha.

or take her out without having a curfew.

or cooking with her.

or cooking for her.

I seriously cannot wait.

All of this seems like a horrible TV show. I’m deleting all that old shit lmfao.

And we’re back!

After seeing my cousins wedding, I’m going to keep my head up. This girl is the one I plan to keep for a long time. Married? Idk. I want to. I’m not going to let this fall through.

I had a dream that I proposed to my girlfriend and she said yes.

And when I told everyone, no one cared at all and blew me off.

But I was still hella fucking happy because I was marrying my girlfriend.

Holy fuck. Is this what being in love feels like? Haha.

I can’t wait to give my girlfriend her birthday gifts. I’m pretty sure she’s going to love ‘em and I wanna see her face when I deliver them to her haha.

I cry too much lmao.

I feel like tumblr has been a huge negative weight on my relationship. Seriously. Most of the problems that have occurred these past 2 years have been because of shit on tumblr. I feel like I should delete my accounts, which sucks because I get a lot of my gaming and art news from it. And I’ve made good friends with people online! I don’t know what the fuck is going on. And it sucks because I’m 6 hours away.

The stupidest and most smug thing I think that someone can say is “… well I think ____ should be everyday!”

What I mean is when people talk about holidays and say that we should celebrate them everyday instead of one day. Well, NO SHIT! I never understand WHY THE HELL people have to say this haha. Yes, we should give thanks every day. Yes, we should appreciate our parents every day. Yes, we should take care of our earth every day. It’s the fact that we choose one day to celebrate that specific ideal. Granted, there are actually a few holidays that were created to “generate money” (I think it was Father’s Day?), but my point still stands. We celebrate those ideals on a specific day to remind us and be honest with yourself, there are days where you don’t keep up those ideals.

It’s fucking common sense that we should always celebrate those ideas. Don’t be fucking smug and say “we should do it everyday!” when you know that you wouldn’t celebrate it everyday anyway.

A couple of days ago, Jenna and I were hanging out in her car because we had time to kill before she went to class. We somehow got onto the topic of kissing and we both have no clue if we’re good kissers or not lol. I mean, how would we know if we only made out with one person? Hahaha.

Well, she said something that made me happy for some reason. It happened after we laughed off at the fact that we don’t know if we’re good kissers or not. She said “I guess we’ll never find out.”

I hope that we never find out as well.

So I was at Barnes today with a friend of mine, Jenna, and by extension, Marcus, and we(not including Marcus because he didn’t sit with us) started talking about fighting in a relationship. Not really anything bad, but my friend brought up the fact that he had an argument with his girlfriend today and that in the end, it’s only going to help the relationship grow. 

He asks me and Jenna if we fight a lot, and that if not, we should(in a kind of half-serious, half-not serious way). I mean, we really don’t fight haha. I can count on my fingers with how many times we’ve argued, so that must mean something considering we’ve been going out for almost 6 years. 

Anyway, I don’t think that fighting is essential in a relationship. It does help, especially if you two manage to actually listen and understand each other instead of blaming one or the other, so you’ll find an appreciation for each other instead of a reason to not like the other person. 

Our relationship has always been strong, and we’ve only fought when it was something serious, so of course it’s going to make us stronger. But with our arguments only happening <10 times, you have to admit that our relationship is strong because we don’t fight a lot. 

Idk, I’m only bringing this up because my friend tries to generalize about relationships in general(he’s been going out with his girlfriend for almost 5 years), but you seriously cannot generalize the relationship I have with Jenna hahaha. It’s not the kind of shit you can learn by watching TV and looking for cliches. 

Well, I haven’t updated here inna while. It’s not like anyone reads this anyway hahaha. I only have 7 followers on here.

Somethings wrong with me. I know there’s something wrong with me. Bleh. I can’t even explain what it is haha. I need someone to talk to. Maybe I’ll hit up Christian later this week. Or not. I have tests to study for. I’ll see what happens lol.

OH, and just for completions sake, yes, I did get into a university. I’m going to Sac State in the Fall! Heyooo!